Athena Sobhan

Welcome to my first blog post!! If you didn’t figure it out by now, my name is Athena (yes like the goddess of wisdom, and no, I’m not as wise as you may think) and I’m just an… average college student *cue Dirty Little Secret playing in the background* 

But really though, I’m just trying to figure out what in the world I’m supposed to do with my life.  I mean, I thought I knew for a really REALLY long time, but now… well, I’ll explain 

I was the kid, when we were asked what we wanted to be when we grew up, I answered doctor, like a lot of the other kids.  The only difference?  It stuck with me all through high school and part of college.  Literally everyone who knew me all knew all i wanted was to become a doctor.  I pictured myself going through college easily, flying through medical school, and ending up in scrubs with a stethoscope around my neck, going around a doctor’s office, performing check-ups and diagnosing people all day, every day.  Obviously, I had a reality check and realized it wasn’t all that easy. 

Come my first year of college, I was fully ready to begin my coursework towards my major in Biology and take the first steps to becoming a doctor.  It wasn’t the Bio classes that I was necessarily struggling in, it was the supplemental classes such as Math and Chem that made me want to crawl into a hole and just, never come out ever again.  My increasing anxiety levels and the growing number of breakdowns made me really consider whether or not medicine was something I truly wanted to pursue, and whether or not I was willing to sacrifice my happiness and sanity.

Of course, I ended up choosing my happiness and sanity.  I found Biology interesting enough to major in, however I was not 100% sure if medicine was something I really wanted to do with my life.  I worried about going through my four years and getting into medical school and realizing at one point that this profession wasn’t for me and end up stuck.  

Now, why Communications?  I took a few Communications classes for my general education and really enjoyed them, and i always had a fascination towards journalism.  I’m still not sure what exactly I am going to do with my degree, but that’s what college is for right? Try new things and figure things out for ourselves.  At this point, I’m just going to take things one at a time and continue to work hard and let everything just fall into place, because worrying about the future too much will not allow me to actually get things done now to avoid my fears from becoming a reality later.